Chance favors the well prepared.
I haven't written a new blog post in a while, and much has changed. Who can forecast the future?
Turns out that the classes I was taking at CCSF were way too basic for me and not stimulating enough.
The film class was cool, but I realized I could do all that stuff on my own, and my time became too valuable.
Time is interesting. It seems that I become more productive when I have less of it. And in a bigger context, it seems silly to spend a year at community college learning how to make a little bit more money an hour than I'm making right now, if I really don't like what I'll be doing. So, junior college is out.
I'm either going to be a self made millionaire, or a broke minimum wage slave. In the spirit of the millionaire, I'm making nice progress with my paintings, and I'm excited about the future of digital video & effects production, especially in connection with my friend James.
Money has eluded me for many years, and I'm fascinated on why I haven't been able to harness it. Chance favors the well prepared, and I have been preparing very diligently. Many times I lose hope and lose patience, and those are the mind games that i dread. In the best of times, I am enthusiastic and hopeful, working hard creating tangible assets that have a true market value, and are emotionally and morally consistent with my world view.
I recently sold 3 paintings to a new friend of mine, which was extremely rewarding and encouraging. Sometimes I question the validity of the show I'm working on, and immediately force myself to stop meditating on the future. What is real? Production is real. Intent is real. The moment is real. Serving others is real. The bigger picture is definitely real. Getting away from my self, my desires, my mind is real.
So in the end, I am hopeful, optimistic and thankful. Grateful. My life is truly beautiful, and I have everything that I need. Training is a slow process, and I can be impatient for the rewards. But diligence is a reward in itself, the quest for excellence. Each stage of the game informs the other, beautifully. The best thing that I can harness is a mood for service to God, and become confident that connecting with His will is the perfect conclusion. SF is beautiful, I have many close friends who are supportive and encouraging. I am thankful.
