Crossroads

So, I've decided to kick-start this blog again...with a new post each weekend...

I'll be talking about my artistic life here in SF, accomplishments, setbacks etc.
I'm hoping that this will subliminally coerce me into a more disciplined state, where my goals are more finely outlined & I spend more time with projects & less time watching Entourage & playing chess online.

Crossroads. I say crossroads because school starts in exactly a week @ City College & I have to decide whether it's going to be film school for the next 6 months, or if I'm going to put school aside and work on a fine art career. I could do both, assuredly, but I'm coming to a point where I want to start seeing results as soon as possible, either financially or at least creatively. Juggling 3 or 4 projects isn't doing much for me anymore, and I'm starting to think that it's a mechanism for staying blocked, and avoiding the fear of digging in & really trying to become excellent at something.

The book "The Artist's Way" has been extremely helpful, I've been following it very closely. It's helped me to discover many artist blocks I've been suffering from, many coming from childhood & dealing with issues like shame, guilt and fear. My spiritual practice is also becoming stronger as an unexpected advantage from following the workbook. I've really began to carve out what I want & work towards wasting less time & money & going for it - unfazed by the fear of failure or the responsibility of success.

So here is the latest...I've been creating compositions in photoshop that I will soon turn into paintings. A friend advised that I create 20 such compositions in an effort to coagulate a unified vision & theme. I've created 9 of these comps already, and I have to say I'm feeling very pleased with the direction.

This week "The Artist's Way" is having me keep an hourly checklist of my activities & a checklist for each dollar I spend everyday. I'm actually relieved that I'm doing this...I can't waste any more time, and I'm ready to start working hard!!!